early morning depression Friday, March 31, 2006 |
sometimes i think to myself about how i should probably update my blog a lot more. okay maybe all those times have been at 11:00 at night when i've displayed my utmost procrastinating abilities while still working in my chemistry homework. and by that, i mean actually writing stuff that is neither deep nor thought provoking but still not posting those quizzes such as "which victoria's secret angel are you?" fine, fine, i admit to trying one of those quizzes once (or maybe twice) but the point is i'm trying to write a blog here. yes, actually COMPOSE. updating often isnt as easy as it seems, though. not when all of you are depending on me to entertain you in some way. unfortunately, today is not a day for entertainment. im going to do something i rarely do: im going to write about my day err yesterday (more commonly known as the today i ate three apples and they were tasty approach).
i was in a funk for most of the day to be honest, i dont know what it is, but im guessing it was nervousness and lack of sleep. this led to me doing a terrible job on my thesis presentation, which in turn made me very embarrassed and sad, which made me pouty which is why im whining. yes, very good paula, the first step is recognition. now on to me stopping whining and moving on to something more interesting. i ate three apples today. the first two were tasty, and the third? eh. not so much.
random topic change: what the fuck is happening to ragnarok now? it used to be a fun game where i am willing spend sleepless nights just to play it. now it is like whats the point, i even get bored of WoE after 30 minutes? now not to turn this in a nostalgic moment (i know beta days are fun), the addition of both npcs(ligaya and donita) is just stupid, i've been to geffen going to aldebaran and it took me 20 minutes just to find and click where the kafra lady is. i know, i know, i abuse it too, but it has to stop now. the game is already stupid as it is before donita and ligaya. now it is worse. and for the 343546th time im thinking of qutting ro.
since im quite the ADD writer, i cant really stay on the same topic for a while. in fact, im ADD about a lot of things. chance must be the only constant element or else i'll proably get bored. so as much as my english teachers have taught me, ill start my next topic not with an exciting attention getter or topic sentence, but instead "lets move on. nexxxt topic." i can see hardin cringing already. our family watched nanny mcphee last night, last full show on glorietta, and it was fun. it's been a while where we all went to the mall and watch a movie since everyone is always busy, but last night everyone took a time off (even ate claire). the movie was ok, i was half asleep anyway. G4 is very nice at night, not so much people, i wish that would be like a weekly thing from now on.
hey. its a new paragraph. so guesss what? NEXT TOPIC. i really should work on coming up with something more creative. on the other hand, if you're still reading, you're obviously not one to worry about creativity, much less, entertainment. i've been single for quite a while. well, for me, at least. its not that i think im better than everyone else, or that nobody seems suitable, its simply that ive been easily irked by relationships in general. im surrounded by relationships that i just am terrified of becoming. for example: the kids that are always breaking up and getting back together. pick one, work with it. this is not some made-for-tv boxoffice bomb soap opera type love story. then there are people who are together for for, say, a year, then break up for few months, then get back together and then celebrate being together for a year and a half. you have not been together a year and a half if the half was potentially spent seeing other people.
suprisingly, i have so much more to say, but i really should go. besides, i feel sort of lame for writing something that nobody is gonna read anyways. maybe next time. so stay tuned for another episode of "today i ate three apples."
i was in a funk for most of the day to be honest, i dont know what it is, but im guessing it was nervousness and lack of sleep. this led to me doing a terrible job on my thesis presentation, which in turn made me very embarrassed and sad, which made me pouty which is why im whining. yes, very good paula, the first step is recognition. now on to me stopping whining and moving on to something more interesting. i ate three apples today. the first two were tasty, and the third? eh. not so much.
random topic change: what the fuck is happening to ragnarok now? it used to be a fun game where i am willing spend sleepless nights just to play it. now it is like whats the point, i even get bored of WoE after 30 minutes? now not to turn this in a nostalgic moment (i know beta days are fun), the addition of both npcs(ligaya and donita) is just stupid, i've been to geffen going to aldebaran and it took me 20 minutes just to find and click where the kafra lady is. i know, i know, i abuse it too, but it has to stop now. the game is already stupid as it is before donita and ligaya. now it is worse. and for the 343546th time im thinking of qutting ro.
since im quite the ADD writer, i cant really stay on the same topic for a while. in fact, im ADD about a lot of things. chance must be the only constant element or else i'll proably get bored. so as much as my english teachers have taught me, ill start my next topic not with an exciting attention getter or topic sentence, but instead "lets move on. nexxxt topic." i can see hardin cringing already. our family watched nanny mcphee last night, last full show on glorietta, and it was fun. it's been a while where we all went to the mall and watch a movie since everyone is always busy, but last night everyone took a time off (even ate claire). the movie was ok, i was half asleep anyway. G4 is very nice at night, not so much people, i wish that would be like a weekly thing from now on.
hey. its a new paragraph. so guesss what? NEXT TOPIC. i really should work on coming up with something more creative. on the other hand, if you're still reading, you're obviously not one to worry about creativity, much less, entertainment. i've been single for quite a while. well, for me, at least. its not that i think im better than everyone else, or that nobody seems suitable, its simply that ive been easily irked by relationships in general. im surrounded by relationships that i just am terrified of becoming. for example: the kids that are always breaking up and getting back together. pick one, work with it. this is not some made-for-tv boxoffice bomb soap opera type love story. then there are people who are together for for, say, a year, then break up for few months, then get back together and then celebrate being together for a year and a half. you have not been together a year and a half if the half was potentially spent seeing other people.
suprisingly, i have so much more to say, but i really should go. besides, i feel sort of lame for writing something that nobody is gonna read anyways. maybe next time. so stay tuned for another episode of "today i ate three apples."